i didn't realise i had posted more than 50 posts xD
since i seldom blog mostly facebook, youtube, pps , pi pi tv , kpop
wonder when i'll be posting my 100th post =P
this year or next year? or the year after next?
or will i ever reach 100 popst?
seems like a mystery to me
blogging relieves my thoughts from my brain(i think)
still i feel like my posts are getting more and more boring...
is it because i'm (what my mom would say) "you're finally thinking more MATUREly"
nope that's not the reason
Reason is because i miss all my friends.. i haven't start college..working alone..
yes i feel terribly lonely xD
okay i had post enough for 2 hours
time to stop
will start posting again on.. er you'll know it when i blog again
tata~
Wednesday, February 23, 2011
(i don't know what title i should put for this post) xD
Been thinking a lot lately
you WOULD if you are stuck at home for two MONTHS(nearly two months)
been worrying about stuff (of course) like SPM...
i know i did badly and there's this horrible ffeeling that i'll get lots of Bs and a D(for mandarin){worst FAIL but it wouldn't be so bad if they didn't put your grades onto the slip if you fail}
because my mandarin essay is out of topic T.T
felt like crying out loud but what is done is done.. i did my best.. i can't change it.. i will just have to face the fact and reality.. not avoiding it
ever since stpm result was out..i'm having constant reminder about "your spm....your result..."
frustrating AND annoying ...and scary AND stressful
i'm the eldest siblings
so naturally it's my responsibility to be a role model for my younger sisters
yes my parents told me over and over again it's ok that you don't get straight As but i can SEE it in their EYES
they REALLY do want the straight As...i felt like i had totally let them down..and it's my fault for not studiyng harder...
hopefully i can get scholarships so i don't have to rely my academics fees on my parents
i felt like i owed them A LOT(even though parents pissed you most of the time)[anyway who doesn't felt that way? everyone must AT LEAST once felt like they controlled too much of your life but you know they only want the best for you]
i'm really glad i met so many people i can call friends at high school
because i didn't really met many real or understanding friends in primary school
(primary school life if one of the worst periods of my life)
i was dumb,naive, too innocent and stupid, no personality just a complete nerd until i went F1 and realise how insane i had been for the past 6 years
REal or Understanding friends
they don't have to be CLOSE friends
they are they one who gives you advices, their point of views to help you through the barrier inside yourself
they are honest even though honesty sometimes really hurts but you've got to face the facts. and facts ARE facts, there's no denying it.
they always had given you help indirectly, without you realising it most of the time
and when you do, you'll be grateful for they are there.
they sometimes had many things in common with you such as characteristics{the way they treat some things etc)
and sometimes understanding friends think alike.
(Great minds think alike no doubt xD and i guess that's why they are UNDERSTANDING friends)
they are there, they are always there, they are around us only we don't notice them most of the time, they were and always will be there
i thank God(i'm not a christian even though my mom's friend been giving me bible study since er..i can't remember when)(i go to the temple once in awhile becuse my grandma wants me to and i can't say no to my grandma)so i'm a free-thinker like my parents
but i believe there's someone/something up there or down there or around us who had created us,guided us through life
they had given each a life which is expectedly unexpected.
Hence live your life to the fullest..life ain't long.
Treasure your life and most importantly everyone and everything around you.
for example i didn't treasure much of my watch(not because it's an original RM 500 Swatch Snowboarder complete with certs black-red1 of my fav colour combination watch)
it's because i WON that watch when i was 14years old.
it represents one of my best achievements in when i was 14.
i lost it after my biology exam during spm..i'm not sure if i lost it at school or what but i hope whoever found it would treasure it eeven though it might mean nothing to you...
conclusion
no one can define what is life
life varies with every special individuals
we are those special individuals
believe that you are special
simply because you are.
you WOULD if you are stuck at home for two MONTHS(nearly two months)
been worrying about stuff (of course) like SPM...
i know i did badly and there's this horrible ffeeling that i'll get lots of Bs and a D(for mandarin){worst FAIL but it wouldn't be so bad if they didn't put your grades onto the slip if you fail}
because my mandarin essay is out of topic T.T
felt like crying out loud but what is done is done.. i did my best.. i can't change it.. i will just have to face the fact and reality.. not avoiding it
ever since stpm result was out..i'm having constant reminder about "your spm....your result..."
frustrating AND annoying ...and scary AND stressful
i'm the eldest siblings
so naturally it's my responsibility to be a role model for my younger sisters
yes my parents told me over and over again it's ok that you don't get straight As but i can SEE it in their EYES
they REALLY do want the straight As...i felt like i had totally let them down..and it's my fault for not studiyng harder...
hopefully i can get scholarships so i don't have to rely my academics fees on my parents
i felt like i owed them A LOT(even though parents pissed you most of the time)[anyway who doesn't felt that way? everyone must AT LEAST once felt like they controlled too much of your life but you know they only want the best for you]
i'm really glad i met so many people i can call friends at high school
because i didn't really met many real or understanding friends in primary school
(primary school life if one of the worst periods of my life)
i was dumb,naive, too innocent and stupid, no personality just a complete nerd until i went F1 and realise how insane i had been for the past 6 years
REal or Understanding friends
they don't have to be CLOSE friends
they are they one who gives you advices, their point of views to help you through the barrier inside yourself
they are honest even though honesty sometimes really hurts but you've got to face the facts. and facts ARE facts, there's no denying it.
they always had given you help indirectly, without you realising it most of the time
and when you do, you'll be grateful for they are there.
they sometimes had many things in common with you such as characteristics{the way they treat some things etc)
and sometimes understanding friends think alike.
(Great minds think alike no doubt xD and i guess that's why they are UNDERSTANDING friends)
they are there, they are always there, they are around us only we don't notice them most of the time, they were and always will be there
i thank God(i'm not a christian even though my mom's friend been giving me bible study since er..i can't remember when)(i go to the temple once in awhile becuse my grandma wants me to and i can't say no to my grandma)so i'm a free-thinker like my parents
but i believe there's someone/something up there or down there or around us who had created us,guided us through life
they had given each a life which is expectedly unexpected.
Hence live your life to the fullest..life ain't long.
Treasure your life and most importantly everyone and everything around you.
for example i didn't treasure much of my watch(not because it's an original RM 500 Swatch Snowboarder complete with certs black-red1 of my fav colour combination watch)
it's because i WON that watch when i was 14years old.
it represents one of my best achievements in when i was 14.
i lost it after my biology exam during spm..i'm not sure if i lost it at school or what but i hope whoever found it would treasure it eeven though it might mean nothing to you...
conclusion
no one can define what is life
life varies with every special individuals
we are those special individuals
believe that you are special
simply because you are.
2010
2010 is one of my most eventful year
i checked back my Digital Photos Folder under 2010 the the 1st Folder is Kursus Kepimpinan Pengawas 2010 xD well the course isn't REALLY that motivatting or fun .. just a normal typical kursus
apparently i didn't took any pics on New Year...
2nd folder was CNY
most memorable stuff i did during CNY was card-making with Loo Yee and wan yin ^^
still not fond of some of my relatives...you know the kinds who think they are the best and know it all kind(i still don't like them A LOT)
{i don't know what had happen to my blog.. i can't put coloured wordings and when i click on the italics [em] stuff keep coming out =.= does anyone know how can i change it back? it's frustating to be only typing BLACK & WHITE only..}
3rd folder is The cAmeron Highland school trip
(honestly i never feel up for a trip to Cameron Highland but what can you do if your the chairman of the organising society?)
But all in all it was an ok trip but the 1st night everyone got panicked over 2 guys in black suits who were following some of the students..creepy people..thank God nothing happen..thanks the angels for watching over us
well i'll skipped a few folders which include Alice in Wonderland art competition , Hari Sukan
Covershot is my favourite folder ^^
we had our family photos taken and the photos were beautiful(as in really natural)
Covershot is a shop at Kelana Jaya.. anyone wants to take a family photo i'll recommend them Covershot, Kelana Jaya. More info FB me xD
Next is the CO2 car folder
ok i still remember the 1st day of meeting on 4th June VERY CLEARLY because
it was my birthday and last day of exam before holiday =.= yep
so i stayed back after school to meet up with the other team members..include tim soon, matthew, wen jing , yong shiang, jia chen, choon tye..crap was mun hong there that day?(okay i admit i didn't remember THAT day as clearly as i thought xD)
Anyway that day i was freaking hungry and frustrated (don't ask me why i just felt that way at that time)
well on competition day.. yep met an accident..nothing big happen..just a small hand sugery..NO WAY i would want to stay overnight at the hospital.. i had enough of hospital admissions xD(yes i had lots of health problems/accidents) =P
still THEY(my teammates) NOT me won 3rd!!! Congrats to them again!!!
not many people can stay calm and still did their best and won k? it's not simple so they deserve ALL the credits
Again i'll skip my other folders... until Graduation Day. I really am missing everyone from SMK SS17(there's an exception of course =P not gonna tell who hehe)
Pn Chuah retirements...spm....and the BEST(most ENJOYING moments of 2010) is my trip to Taiwan
Met so many new friends..each with different personalities,their own style
Gosh..i'm missing them AGAIN even i know them for ONLY 2 WEEKS
yes only 2 weeks
but what can you say we totally bonded woth each other
Pan Pan
Fei
Kah Sheng
Ivy
Yi Ying
Julia
Jie Lian
Shirley
Terry
Yew Ping
YanGin(Mr Headmaster xD)
Gu Lun
Yuin Hoong and Yi Hung(no they aren't brothers) xD
Chun Leng
Seah
Tze Yuan
Pao Ee
Kai Ling
Kim Hui(photographer)
Jui Aik aka prof Tan
Zhi Yean
Yee Seng
Chin Kwang
Boon Hau
Yiki
and SO MANY more... sorry i couldn't list out everyone's name
but all of you guys had made December 16th-29th one of my most memorable and best moments of my life
seriously THANK YOU guys
will miss you guys always
Last few days of 2010 spent my days with Loo Yee, Wan Yin . Amerlyn , Yu ying...before school starts and Loo Yee and Amerlyn go NS..
There's up and downs in 2010
i lost 2 important people
you might not get why they are important to me since they aren't my relatives or close friends
sometimes without you realising it,time spent shortly EVEN if it's a stranger could change you in ways you won't notice till they are gone
One had taught me to speak up, not be the old me(timid, shy,got pushed around type)
One had taught me to always give people smiles even if they don't return your smile
I 1st met them both in 2006.. i didn't get to know them that well but they each had changed me without me realising it until lately..
i guess this is the end of my post 2010...
i checked back my Digital Photos Folder under 2010 the the 1st Folder is Kursus Kepimpinan Pengawas 2010 xD well the course isn't REALLY that motivatting or fun .. just a normal typical kursus
apparently i didn't took any pics on New Year...
2nd folder was CNY
most memorable stuff i did during CNY was card-making with Loo Yee and wan yin ^^
still not fond of some of my relatives...you know the kinds who think they are the best and know it all kind(i still don't like them A LOT)
{i don't know what had happen to my blog.. i can't put coloured wordings and when i click on the italics [em] stuff keep coming out =.= does anyone know how can i change it back? it's frustating to be only typing BLACK & WHITE only..}
3rd folder is The cAmeron Highland school trip
(honestly i never feel up for a trip to Cameron Highland but what can you do if your the chairman of the organising society?)
But all in all it was an ok trip but the 1st night everyone got panicked over 2 guys in black suits who were following some of the students..creepy people..thank God nothing happen..thanks the angels for watching over us
well i'll skipped a few folders which include Alice in Wonderland art competition , Hari Sukan
Covershot is my favourite folder ^^
we had our family photos taken and the photos were beautiful(as in really natural)
Covershot is a shop at Kelana Jaya.. anyone wants to take a family photo i'll recommend them Covershot, Kelana Jaya. More info FB me xD
Next is the CO2 car folder
ok i still remember the 1st day of meeting on 4th June VERY CLEARLY because
it was my birthday and last day of exam before holiday =.= yep
so i stayed back after school to meet up with the other team members..include tim soon, matthew, wen jing , yong shiang, jia chen, choon tye..crap was mun hong there that day?(okay i admit i didn't remember THAT day as clearly as i thought xD)
Anyway that day i was freaking hungry and frustrated (don't ask me why i just felt that way at that time)
well on competition day.. yep met an accident..nothing big happen..just a small hand sugery..NO WAY i would want to stay overnight at the hospital.. i had enough of hospital admissions xD(yes i had lots of health problems/accidents) =P
still THEY(my teammates) NOT me won 3rd!!! Congrats to them again!!!
not many people can stay calm and still did their best and won k? it's not simple so they deserve ALL the credits
Again i'll skip my other folders... until Graduation Day. I really am missing everyone from SMK SS17(there's an exception of course =P not gonna tell who
Pn Chuah retirements...spm....and the BEST(most ENJOYING moments of 2010) is my trip to Taiwan
Met so many new friends..each with different personalities,their own style
Gosh..i'm missing them AGAIN even i know them for ONLY 2 WEEKS
yes only 2 weeks
but what can you say we totally bonded woth each other
Pan Pan
Fei
Kah Sheng
Ivy
Yi Ying
Julia
Jie Lian
Shirley
Terry
Yew Ping
YanGin(Mr Headmaster xD)
Gu Lun
Yuin Hoong and Yi Hung(no they aren't brothers) xD
Chun Leng
Seah
Tze Yuan
Pao Ee
Kai Ling
Kim Hui(photographer)
Jui Aik aka prof Tan
Zhi Yean
Yee Seng
Chin Kwang
Boon Hau
Yiki
and SO MANY more... sorry i couldn't list out everyone's name
but all of you guys had made December 16th-29th one of my most memorable and best moments of my life
seriously THANK YOU guys
will miss you guys always
Last few days of 2010 spent my days with Loo Yee, Wan Yin . Amerlyn , Yu ying...before school starts and Loo Yee and Amerlyn go NS..
There's up and downs in 2010
i lost 2 important people
you might not get why they are important to me since they aren't my relatives or close friends
sometimes without you realising it,time spent shortly EVEN if it's a stranger could change you in ways you won't notice till they are gone
One had taught me to speak up, not be the old me(timid, shy,got pushed around type)
One had taught me to always give people smiles even if they don't return your smile
I 1st met them both in 2006.. i didn't get to know them that well but they each had changed me without me realising it until lately..
i guess this is the end of my post 2010...
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